i knew it

ya know those feelings you get when you know the inevitable will happen?
ya know those feelings you get when you try to forget the past and believe the same thing wont happen again?
ya know those feelings you get when you try soo hard to make something right and it doesn't work out?
ya know those feelings you get when you trust someone with all you have?
ya know those feelings you get when you love someone? maybe even two?
ya know those feelings you get when someone is honest with you but it feels like the exact opposite?
ya know those feelings you get when you feel like you have made yourself clear and people still don't understand?
ya know those feelings you get when you feel like your good friends have done you wrong?
ya know those feelings you get when you feel like no one has listened to you?
ya know those feelings you get when you feel like all you want to do is cry?
ya know those feelings you get when you can't wait to leave town ..and wish you could leave forever?
ya know those feelings you get when people get in your business that have no right?
ya know those feelings you get when you really just wanna throw your phone at the wall and hope it shatters into a billion pieces?
ya know those feelings you get when you people say you'll regret things but you know you wont?
ya know those feelings you get when people literally think you are crazy? and you're being logical?
ya know those feelings you get when you find out your best friend is pregnant?
ya know those feelings you get when someone tells you one thing and does the opposite?
ya know those feelings you get when other parents call your parents to talk about your friendships?
ya know those feelings you get when you are so exhausted but so emotionally wound up that you can't sleep?
ya know those feelings you get when your best-friend-brother leaves on a mission and you have to be the strong one?
ya know those feelings you get when you finally break down?
ya know those feelings you get when you heavenly father comforts you?
ya know those feelings you get when you feel like you never want to leave your house everrrr?
ya know those feelings you get when you are so excited to see someone that tomorrow can't come fast enough?
ya know those feelings you get when you read your scriptures and somehow your heart is calmed?
you did know. and you did it anyway. and i knew it would happen as much as i thought you would be better than that.



.....yeah i'm calling it a night. it's been one from hell. and one from heaven. buttttt we'll end on that.