Tender Memories

So the other night Am and I were cuddled up in bed.. We had just watched Twilight [i know i am a horrible wife for making him watch these movies with me..] and Am was dead asleep. There i was, laying on his chest and the most overwhelming sense of gratitude came over me. It was one of those moments where I felt so incredibly lucky to have him as my husband, to have him forever, and my heart was just overflowing with love for him. I felt so inadequate to be his wife, and I began saying a silent prayer thanking my Heavenly Father for blessing me with the most amazing man as my husband, when I was reminded of an experience I had last fall.

The experience went something like this.. I had been fasting for 3 sundays straight for guidance in my relationship at the time. I was confused, miserable, and unsure why. I remember coming home from church soo frustrated that I had felt absolutely NO direction with where I was supposed to go, what i was supposed to do, and why I hadn't received any answer. I went straight downstairs to my bedroom where i literally collapsed on the floor in frustration and sadness. I was a bawling mess, but I slowly began to pray to my Savior. For the first time, instead of asking "who"..I told him the qualities I wanted in my husband, the things that were most important for him to have, the type of family I wanted, the things I wanted to accomplish, my deepest and most private desires.  It was a long genuine prayer filled with lots of tears and humility. As soon as I closed my prayer, a simple thought came into my head "that's Ammon." And at that second, I knew that my Savior was right.

Time proved to complicate things, and i quickly forgot the experience I had that Sunday. But as i was reminded this week, I vowed to never forget that experience again. I was reminded of all the things I asked for.. the things i told my Savior I wanted.. and guess what? Ammon is and has been the answer to everything. I love that dang husband of mine! And I love that my Savior provided me with that answer (which at the time I didn't think much of). It is such a testimony builder to me to remember that sweet "That's Ammon" moment.

Guys. The Lord answers our prayers. He knows us better than we know ourselves and he is there to provide us help when we ask. It breaks my heart to see my friends struggling with dating, life, school, decisions, etc.. But here's the thing I know to be true: If you will honestly submit your will to your Savior's will.. He will take you down the right path. You will end up right where you need to be. And you will be happier than you ever thought possible!

(this post was supposed to be a Sunday post.. but our internet is out soooo you got it today instead! Hope you don't mind)

3 comments

  1. this is beautiful and i needed to hear this, thanks!

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  2. Wow I love this. Thanks for sharing! Something I definitely needed to be reminded of.

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  3. i might be crying right now haley. the power of prayer is amazing. i love that you prayed differently, that instead of asking what to do or who to marry you told the lord your true desires. i think we all forgot to pray like that (at least i do), to pray with real intent and open hearts. i also love that you talked about the complications that shortly followed. you get revelation, you feel the spirit, and then bam! satan hits you hard.

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